Shopping Diaries : The Electronic Torment

I have never really been interested in shopping for electronic goods. I do it only when it is absolutely essential and I cannot avoid it any further. Even when I am in the store, you will not find me browsing through gadgets. They just don't interest me. However, there have been a couple of instances when I have actually strolled through electronic appliances lined up on shelves, just like that. It is not that electronics per se bore me. But yes, it may not be my first choice on a shopping outing. And I must confess that the post sales and especially installation irk me no end!

Buying a pair of headphones or a spike buster or a hair dryer off the shelf is no big deal. The real trouble arises when you decide to invest in durables like a home theatre system, a washing machine or a food processor. The hassle begins once you've taken possession of the goods. Get the warranties stamped, understand the terms and conditions of servicing and maintenance, disuade the salesman from persuading you to buy an extended warranty; and as if all this, after the toil of having selected your gadgets, wasn't enough you are required to fill in an installation form - which is nothing but your preferred time and day when the official 'engineer', who is basically a mechanic, can come over and install your appliance.

You've filled in your preferred time for installation as the coming Monday, between 12 noon to 3 pm - let's assume you binged on electronics on a Friday. The 'engineers' don't work on weekends, so Monday was the earliest option. The electronics are stacked up in a corner of your house awaiting the 'engineer'. In the meantime you decide upon a spot to get it installed, and your insincere maid has an excellent excuse for not sweeping and mopping the area around and under that huge carton. Finally, after a lazy weekend, Monday does arrive. You rush to work, and instruct your spouse - I am not just referring to the wives here! - regarding the installation. When you return home, you spot the carton intact where it was. It so happened that the official 'engineer' had a busier Monday than you'd thought he would. He may probably call on you the next day.

If you are lucky the mechanic turns up the next day, at whatever time is convenient to him. He may interrupt your lunch or worse, your siesta. But do you have a choice? You are supposed to stay indoors till the esteemed guest graces your residence. Once the 'engineer' is in your house, rest assured that it is the end of your peace and solace for the rest of the day, atleast. You must make sure that your house is appropriately ventilated to suit the busy man. He will fuss about unnecessarily with the packaging of your gadget, demand the warranty card and sometimes even the payment receipt! He will place his filthy bag on your sofa or the dewan as may be the furniture in your house. He may even trod on your carpets with his socks on! Out of courtesy when you offer him a glass of water, make sure its straight out of the deep freeze. They are fastidious about these things you know and do not think twice before ordering you around your own home. While they are working you must be at their beck and call, equipped generally with a dry duster, a wet duster, a broom stick, a mop and some old newspapers. More specific requirements will be pronounced as the installation progresses.

When the ordeal is finally over, he will proceed to make a call - that in addition to the N number of calls he already attended to while he was at work. You remember he's very busy, right? Not to mention the pseudo-intellectual expression on his visage. While on the call, he will start checking your device as though he installed it for himself, completely ignoring you and forgetting that you are waiting for the demo. Then he gets busy with the memos and other paper work, tells you where to sign, almost snatches the memo when you want to fill in the attendant feedback and leaves. At the doorstep, he turns, and nods. Personally, it takes a hell lot of self restraint for me not to strangle that unpleasant creature. I shut the door saying 'thank you' -  not for installing my appliances but for leaving.

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What Was That Word, Again?

 "It's always a bit of a struggle to get the words right, whether we're a Hemingway or a few fathoms below his level."

~  

Rene J. Cappon

One drawback of thinking too much is that you must supply your mind with an unending stream of words, all the time. Many a time, it so happens that you know exactly what you are thinking, but you cannot recall the word or term that describes your thought. For instance, this morning I couldn't recall a certain word. I don't know why I thought of it in the first place; but I did anyway. I was in the process of preparing a glass of chocolate milkshake for my breakfast when suddenly obscure thoughts start racing my mind, and they halt on the thing you use to pluck the strings of the guitar. I know the word. I will recognise it if I just hear it once. It is almost at the tip of my tongue. But I cannot recall it!

This is one situation I dread and hate; and one that I am confronted with very often. My mind is not at peace until I remember the word that I have forgotten. It becomes impossible for me to do anything unless 'the word' is discovered. Today, I panicked and pestersed my parents to tell me the word I had forgotten. They racked their memory, Google was consulted but the word was not uncovered. This had to end. I thought where I had come across that word for the first time. It was an arts & craft book which has been in the family for nearly 40 years now. I ran to my book shelf, and almost instinctively my hand went to the shelf where the book was. I was lucky that the book was still where I had kept it almost an year ago. I flipped through the pages and saw it - plectrum. It was the joy of heaven!

On other ocassions, too, I have inflicted torture on mankind when my memory tricks me. But most of the times I have come to my own rescue. Words may slip out of my mind, but strangely I always remember where I came across them. I once scoured through a particular dictionary because I remembered the location of the word on one of the right hand side pages, and also what it meant, though I had forgotten the letter with which the word began. I was successful in the end; but I did this atleast 5 times. This word was bezel. Another time, I sent out panic stricken text messgaes to my parents in the middle of a lecture pleading them to tell me what was Pranoy Roy's expertise. Thankfully, they obliged. The word here was psephology. The other day, while I was strolling through a mall, and I noticed that the counter of a particular brand was missing. I kept straining my head but couldn't get the name of that brand at all. Not even a hint. How, then, was I supposed to ask the salesman about it? After I got home, and the first thing I did was to dive into my wardrobe to hunt for my floral dress and check its label. I had forgotten Remanika. These are just a few of occurences out of so many.

I have spent innumerable afternoons scanning through magazines, newspapers, thesauri and even novels trying to search for words that escape recall. I have a little notepad where I note down the words that I usually forget - yes, there are some words that I regularly forget. I cannot locate that notepad now by the way, and okapi is the only word I remember writing in it. Then there are those words which I am not able to recall for a very long time - despite all my efforts -and consequently I forget that I have forgotten them and eventually when such a word does come back to me I don't know that it was the same elusive one that had agonised me sometime back!

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Shopping Diaries : My Foot!

"Feet, what do I need you for when I have wings to fly?"

~  

Frida Kahlo 

After almost every instance that I have gone out shopping, I've returned with a resolution in my mind - never to shop for footwear again! However, the next time I do spot a shoe store, my curiosity and optimism get the better of me, and before I can stop myself I am already browsing the shelves. Here's why we came around to the resolution in the first place.

In a store that has say around 500 pairs of footwear on display, I might like a couple - courtesy :  the choosy me. The size on display is never the one that will fit me. So I ask the storekeeper to get me my size of the same shoe. He looks at the shoe on display and tries to take sneak peek at my feet. I ask him bluntly, "What is the bigget size you have?" He doesn't want to lose a prospective customer easily, and in his attempt to buy time, tells me, "We may have your size. I'll just have a look in our godown. Why don't you see something else in the meantime?" I bid my time and look around. Sometimes I find something interesting, most of the times I don't. The keeper returns empty handed, and feigns regret at not having found my size in that particular design. Tell you what, I am not surprised. Its not the first time this happened. I am kind of used to it. Ever since my feet grew to their full size - I was 15 then - I have visited a number of shoe shops only to return disappointed!

It is not that I was always used to this. The first few times this happened, I was rather embarrassed  Some shopkeepers tried to console me by saying that they had run out of stock whereas the other insensitive ones told me that shoemakers did not make shoes of my size! This would usually be followed by me losing my temper and storming out of the shop swearing under my breath, determined never to glance at that shop again. With the passage of time, however, I have come to terms with the fact that its not easy to find good shoes that fit my feet; but it is not impossible. There have been occasions when I have had to have my footwear flown in from the middle east and Bulgaria. In addition to the lovely shoes, I was also reassured that atleast in some part of this world, there are women who have feet like mine. So yes, shoemakers do make shoes that fit me. If they didn't, I'd have gone the M F Hussain way a long time back.

These days I can, more often than not, predict the response of the shopkeeper. I have mastered the art of reading expressions which conceal the process of choosing the right words to tell me that I have large feet and the shop cannot cater to my pedial needs. Nowadays, I get into shoe shops more for the kick of it than to actually buy them. Before the shopkeeper can frame his sentence I ask, "You don't have it, right?"; and all he can do is nod sheepishly. Guess that makes it easier for him as well as for me. For him because he is spared the effort. For me because I can easily move out of the shop after having embarrassed him for a change.
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Of the Heart, From the Mind

"Things that were hard to bear are sweet to remember."

 ~ 

Seneca 

The frivolous overuse of terms like 'get over' and 'move on' these days spurs a thought in my mind. Is there really something like getting over things, or moving on? Can you really 'get over' your past and 'move on'? It is easier said than done. No wonder every Tom, Dick and Harry, in fact, only preaches this and doesn't practice.

Wise folks have advised their antecedents not to dwell in their past. To do and forget. To forget and move on. We are told to forget the bad times and cherish the good ones. Let go of the bad memories, and revel in the happy ones. But can you really sort your memories and experiences in order to remember them selectively? A human brain cannot do that, and maybe to make up for that shortcoming we made computers, where we can manage the 'memory' as we please. Humans, by nature, tend to associate significant events, occasions and people in their lives with certain physical cues. The moment passes away but the paraphernalia remains. Every time you pass a certain lane or visit a certain place or make a passing reference to something, memories - good or bad - rebound.

Your past was once your present. It is something that was a part of you, and something that will continue to be a part of you. Always. No matter how much you loathe it, hate it, detest it or even try to forget it; the fact is that the past continues to remain as long as you do. Be it a lost opportunity, loss of a loved one or a heartbreak - we just cannot get over it. Time is a great healer, agreed. It may heal the wound, but the scar will remain. The memory of that wound will linger.

Just as the good times stay with us subconsciously, so do the bad ones. You may, perhaps, try to avoid recalling the unpleasant episodes of your past; but in the process of avoiding, haven't you thought about it already? The long and short of it is that your past never leaves you. It lives with you. Like it or not, it keeps coming back and there is very little you can do about it.

What is in your domain of control, however, is the extent to which your past affects you. Rather, the extent to which you let your past affect you. How wise is it, anyway, to ponder over your past? Be it a happy memory that brings a smile to your face everytime you think of it, or a sad reminiscent that churns up a buried pain within. Neither gloating over something great that happened nor mourning over a mishap is worthwhile, if done excessively. You thrive in the past by forgoing your present and ignoring the impending future. Relishing a past glory or crying over spilled milk for a more than proportionate period of time proves detrimental to your personal growth. Thoughts do not knock before entering your mind. They just float in. However, it is your stance that matters when it comes to handling them.

Given that a memory lives forever, you mustn't, however, halt to accommodate it in your routine. That will be a clash of your heart with your mind.  But take it as it comes. Let it catch pace with you if it can or else let it disappear into oblivion. If it does catch pace, let your 'present' actions overpower it - if its a joyful memory, do something that makes you happier; if its a memory that hurts, again do something spectacular that obliviates your pain. Spare a moment for it only if its worthy of it. It will pester you for a while, and then leave your mind. Even if does saunter in your subconscious self, don't let it hold you back from doing what you must right now. Don't let it become a hurdle in your path to your goals. At the same time, don't run away from it. That won't help, because your memories reside in you and you cannot run away from yourself. Learn from your past, and act with prudence now. For it is this 'now' that will be your past in a while and the cycle goes on endlessly.

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Shopping Diaries : A Sunday with Seema

Following a series of unforeseen circumstances, Seema was forced to cancel her usual Sunday brunch and window shopping trip to Phoenix Mills.

In order to meet a deadline for her latest assignment at work, she had been burning the midnight oil for the past fortnight. The report had been duly prepared and dispatched on time. However, due to an accidental omission of a few essential facts she was compelled to sacrifice her precious Sunday afternoon in the lone desolate cubicle in her office. Having finished all her work finally, Seema realised that she was famished. She had been working for hours at an end and saw that it was 3:30 in the afternoon. In order to grab some lunch she packed up and left the office premises.

It was a typical humid Mumbai afternoon. The sun was at its peak. Seema looked around for an auto rickshaw but there was none in sight. Left with no option she began to walk. There was a good fast food joint a little ahead, however, she did not have the strength to walk up all the way. So she decided to stay under the shade of a hovering tree and wait for an auto rickshaw to come by. Ten minutes passed. Not a single rickshaw came that way. It was the wrong day to have sent her car for its maintenance and servicing. In despair, Seema began to walk ahead.

Her high heels made it difficult for her to walk. She was cursing the auto drivers, the weather, the government, the state policy and the uneven roads. As she dragged herself to the other side of the lane a sign board caught her attention. It read “Rajasthan State Emporium's Handicrafts Exhibition". As if involuntarily, Seema began to walk towards the exhibition hall.

The hall was a vibrant canvas of a million colours. Authentic traditional Rajasthani artefacts and handicrafts adorned with hundreds of tiny mirrors made a beautiful collage and was a welcome to sight for Seema after a tiring drab day. Her exhaustion and hunger took a backseat and she leaped forward at the nearest stall to begin her exploration. As she came to understand the exhibition was to wind up in the next couple of hours. Visiting an exhibition in its last few hours has its own pros and cons. Most of the vendors are out of their best stock, and a lot of them are in a hurry to wind up. However, many a time you will find this last minute visit as an amazing opportunity to bargain, as most vendors are anxious to get rid of their stock, and they are not as sticky about their otherwise exorbitant prices as you will find them on other occasions!

Seema scanned the hall quickly in order to decide which stalls she wanted to visit. Having made a note of a few, she ventured forth on her unplanned shopping expedition. The first stall that she went to, had sarees and other apparel for women. Seema was an expert shopper, and time was of the essence right now. She quickly had 3 sarees pulled down for a closer look. She compared and contrasted and decided to purchase one. The vendor tried to entice her to purchase another one as well. She refused but he persisted. He offered a good bargain and persuaded her to take along the other saree for a discount. Now that is an offer a shopaholic can never refuse! Seema haggled with him a little more and eventually bought both the sarees for the price of one. Hail bargaining! She then came across an interesting vendor who looked like he was in a trance. He kept quoting different prices for the same commodity to every other person who approached him. Seema observed him for a good five minutes before she finally lay her hand on a chiffon stole. He told her it would cost Rs. 250. To the other 3 people who enquired about the same stole - much to Seema's chagrin - he quoted Rs. 300, Rs. 500 and Rs. 600 in quick succession. Before he could change his quotation to Seema, and in order to avoid quibbling with him she quickly settled the deal and went ahead, rather amused.

The next stall had what Seema loved - bags! She was excited at the variety that was still available at that stall. Pointing out to a bright red sling bag, Seema asked the man behind the counter to show it to her. He was preoccupied and did not respond. When she again asked him to show her the bag, he put down the receipt book he was fiddling with and gave her a harried look only to say, " Listen Madam, please help yourself! I am very busy and don't have time for all these things. Take down whatever you want to see on your own!". Here was one strange merchant. In the entire shopping process he only obliged her by disclosing the prices of his goods. Having had helped herself - quite literally - she calculated the amount due and thrust the money onto the vendor's palm who was still not interested, and murmured that this was the last hour of the exhibition.

With just an hour at her disposal, Seema had to act fast. Really fast. There were so many other things to see and buy - earrings, bangles, beads, clothes, bed covers, footwear, puppets and pottery! She felt she was on the verge of losing something valuable. After all, this was the only way to make up for her wasted Sunday. Moving like a ninja on a mission, Seema raced past the stalls, her eyes scanning the items on display. She bargained with the vendors, argued with them and pushed aside other shoppers who eyed the things she'd chosen to buy.

By the end of three quarters of the hour that followed, Seema was a rejuvenated woman with a dozen shopping bags dangling around her carelessly. Satisfied with her unexpected shopping, she left the exhibition hall. Just then she got a call from the service centre informing her that it was time for them to deliver her car. She instructed them to get the car to the exhibition hall, and squatted down on the lawn in front with a benign smile. The day had been set right - yet again - by her favourite stress buster.

Shopping is such a bliss!

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My Tryst With the Quadrupeds - Vol. III : Some Things Unsaid

I spotted him last evening, after nearly a week, sleeping peacefully under the tree. He seemed to have lost a little weight, but looked as cute as ever in his graceful sprawling posture. Not wanting to wake him up, I tried to tiptoe past, but darn his acute senses! The instant I crossed him he was up, and cried out like a baby. I couldn't be hard on him - and myself - after hearing that purr.

He got up and shook himself up to launch a series of meows on me. I figured he was hungry, and rushed to fetch milk for him. Unfortunately, the canteen was out of milk, so I had to get him biscuits. He doesn't like biscuits but his hunger pang was stronger than his cuisine preference at the moment. Taking our places at one of his favourite eating spots, I broke down a few biscuits for him to gobble.Watching him eat, I thought to myself who'd spoil this brat for the coming 3 months; at the same time assuring myself that Nature had endowed him with the requisite skills to fend for himself.

As he finished eating, I got up to leave. And for the first time he held me back. Placing a firm paw on my thigh, he perched himself on my lap. He then lay his head on my lap and slipped halfway on to the grass, not loosening his grip on me though. It seemed as though that was his way of telling me not to leave. Animals have this eerie way sensing things. I would've stayed back if I could, but we cannot always do what we want to, can we? I'd take him home with me, but I value his independence and free way of life much more than my whims. Also, my resident pets would create a pandemonium at home if I brought in a playmate for them. In the meantime he pretended to sleep on my lap. (I know he was pretending because he kept checking if I was looking at him!)

After about an hour I had to get up to leave. There was a lot of packing and sorting to be done. I put aside his paw, which he instantly put back. We did this a couple of times before I finally got up. He caught hold of my wrist and refused to let go, even licked it  - most unusual for a cat. He then tried to grab my attention by rolling on the grass and enticing me to play with him. I tickled his belly, and turned to go. I could hear him purring indignantly. But I did not turn back.

With immense attachment comes immense insecurity and the agony of parting. With me, it is the same about Bunty, and his little gesture conveyed a lot as well. With his typical grumpily smug expression, he watched me leave.

I'll miss you my little brat. Stay good till I am back!

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Have a Look at Us

( Post originally written on 07/06/2009)

The latest product of dishonesty which is teetering into the lives of thousands of innocent Indians is the  influx of counterfeit currency notes in mainstream circulation. Counterfeits have been introduced into circulation in denominations of Rs. 1000 notes. You are likely to come across these new entrants in circulation at ATMs, bank cash counters and just about anywhere.

There are ways to detect the fake currency but what appals me is the directive issued by the government stating that the person found in possession counterfeit money is liable to be interrogated, even arrested! You cannot question the bank or for that matter anybody in this world if you happen to come across fake currency. If the ATM tends counterfeit money, well its your fault that you chose to withdraw YOUR money, and not the bank's who accepted such money which in turn was given to you by the ATM. Whats more, don't even expect that your claim for recompensing the counterfeit money will be as much as even entertained by the RBI.

This is just one of the many inhuman, inconsiderate, cruel and 'anti-people' ways that our government has resorted to for tackling or rather covering up their foolhardy blunders even if that means tormenting the common man, whose votes have given them the authority to do what they are doing.

What does one expect from a government who instates in its cabinet a Home Minister who tells an MP - under threat for his life - that he cannot protect each and every person in this country. This statement is tantamount to blasphemy in a democracy. What the hell does P. Chidambaram propose to do in the allotted five years of his term as the Union Cabinet Minister of Home is what I'd like to know; if its not the safety of every individual, what is it? A government which harbours such an indifferent and lackadaisical attitude towards the security of the citizens is one which is surely elected by foolish voters. Being so large in numbers, we have forgotten to value the worth human life. That's the reason why the aforementioned statement has gone unnoticed, let alone invite a critique. I'd seriously like to know what the Home Ministry has on its agenda if its so convinced that protecting every individual in the country is something they cannot do, and something that are not even going to try. Its just like a doctor saying that he cannot treat every patient or like a teacher saying that he cannot teach every student.

And then you have to place your blind faith and trust in the government which you have elected just because you are living in the biggest democracy of the world!

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Complicated Thoughts of a Simple Mind

(Post originally written on 24/04/2009)

"Your own mind is a sacred enclosure into which nothing harmful can enter except by your promotion." 

~

Ralph Waldo Emerson

There are times when one feels that the world is beautiful, despite its flaws; and there are times when one feels that this world is hopeless. Well, these feelings crop up solely due to one's emotions at a given point in time. But the truth is that this world has no beauty, and is full of ugly and disappointing things. When you know you've worked hard for something and you are sure to get your due, somebody pours a pitcher of cold water on your head only to make you realise that what you did may be good, but I don't think so. There is someone better than you, and that someone will get to bask in the glory which you certainly deserve. These disappointments, it is said, are necessary to understand the journey of life. Such philosophical claptrap is said and propagated only to justify unfair deeds. It may happen that what you think to be outstanding may not be so, and someone else's work - better than yours - gets appreciated; an honest and clean mind will not get affected by it. But if something relatively mediocre gets your due recognition, that very honest and clean mind will be utterly discouraged and demoralized.

Have you ever felt like that? You must have. So what does one do in such a situation? It takes a lot of grit to gather yourself and get up again to face the world. But the crux here is that you have to get up. No matter what happens, you must get up. There will always be a few people in your life who always want the best for you - your family, friends, mentors. So when you feel bogged down, just close your eyes and recollect the faces of your loved ones. You will see the hope in their eyes and the smiles on their faces. Believe it or not, that will act as a morale booster for you. It will give you the strength to let go of what has happened and move on to bigger things in life. After all there is no problem bigger than your might and will power. You are the master of your fate. Your life will give you just what you want from it. So dream, dream big and dream a lot. Those who don't dream, don't really do much. Chase your dreams; they are not easy to catch. But then anything that ever was worth doing, was not easy.

Be honest. Be happy. Be blessed. Peace.
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Merci Beaucoup

"They can conquer who believe they can. He has not learned he first lesson in life who does not everyday surmount a fear." 

~ 

Ralph Waldo Emerson

"Self-will so ardent and active that it will break a world to pieces to make a stool to sit on. "
~
Unknown

There is never a better time than now to offer a little vote of thanks to those who have helped you reach where you are today.
After all, everyday you grow, you learn, you achieve; and you do that with help of the people who come into your life.

So here is my vote of thanks for the people who thought

I was incapable,

I did not have it in me,

I was undeserving,

I was not intelligent,

I lacked creativity,

I was devoid of talent.

Not to forget those who were mean to me,

Who spoke behind my back,

Who criticised my methods,

Who misunderstood me,
Who judged me without knowing  me,

Who created hurdles in my path,

Who tried to isolate me,

And those who eventually parted ways, leaving me in the lurch.

I thank you all, sincerely.

For it is because of you and your deeds that I have come to value those who love me more than ever. 

I give my best to everything that I do. 

Every goal that I set is more challenging than the previous.

I have befriended excellence and perfection.

I have successfully polished my capabilities beyond what you can imagine.

I am my own teacher, and have honed my talents adroitly.

My creativity lives and grows with me, and we see a new dawn, a new opportunity, a new avenue everyday.

I spend more time with myself, and am a better person.

Being alone never daunts me. I am my best companion.

With a will power so indomitable, that the mightiest of storms will retrace,

Self confidence so fortified that I can take on the world single-handedly,

A mind so open, that imbibes something valuable every single day,

Faith so reinforced, that there is no looking back now.
I have emerged stronger.

None of this would be possible without  you. Thank you again.

Dissuade me, hate me, break me.

I will rise each time, like a phoenix rises from its own ashes. 

I will win the battle without any crutches, every single time.

And I will have a glorious story to tell at the end of the day.
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Missing School

(Post originally written on 25/07/2009)

Many a time I have found myself pondering over the kind of people one comes across in the course of one's life. I can't say about others, but I have particularly been unfortunate with my acquaintances; I call them acquaintances because I was never given a chance to consider a lot of people as my friends. And, mind you, I'm very fastidious about acquaintances who become friends, because not everyone can be a friend; they have to be special.

As a child, I was always on the look out for a friend; everyone wants and needs friends. I always saw children in twos and threes pattering around claiming to be each other's 'best friends' and wondered if I'd ever have a 'best' friend; I was to soon realise that I have no friends leave aside best friends. In my school, it was a general trend that students sitting together in clusters of four would become fast friends. This was quite a comfortable arrangement, the only drawback being that lest your place be changed or should you be shifted to another section the next year (which usually happened) you would have to make a new set of fast friends. This in particular would sadden my heart, because quite unlike others I would grow fond of my so-called friends.

Also, there would always be a bully in class who would attract all girls to herself, leaving me with two options - either to follow the bully or loiter alone. I frankly don't remember what I used to do. As if this mentally taxing stupidity was not enough, a girl whom I was finally coming to believe to be my friend suddenly stopped coming to school. After a few days I began to panic and asked another girl from her vicinity about her, only to learn that she had shifted residence. For sometime I couldn't believe it was true, but who cared about me!

There were girls in school with whom I was supposedly friends but the next year they refused to recognise me (the general trend , remember?). I mean, come on, did those girls ever realise what they were doing. I longed for a "hi" from my best friend, but she chose to look through me and went right across my face with someone else. Okay, I did not want you to spend the lunch break with me, but does a 'hi' take so long? I spent seven years in this 'great' school, every year hoping that someone would be different and would be my friend for more than an year, but all I was being was hopelessly optimistic.

I was to shift residence after my eighth grade. My new residence was very far away from the present one, so that meant I had to change my school as well. I was in quite a dilemma regarding this, because I was not used to shifting schools very often and resistance to change is human tendency after all. But I had to shift. And so I did, with a heavy heart. And without telling anyone about it. Anyone but a couple of girls who were my friends, mainly because we lived in the same vicinity and travelled to and back from school together. I kept my 'shift of residence' a quiet episode simply because I thought nobody would be interested in knowing whether or not I'd join them the next term. I think I was quite right.

But as they say what goes around, comes around. After I finished my high school, for my graduation I secured admission in a college which was in the same vicinity as my previous school. On my first day to college, just one glance around the place was enough to realise that the place was swarmed with the girls whom I had left behind four years back. Not surprisingly, nobody recognised me. Maybe a few did, I could make out from the expressions. But that was all. No conversations ensued. So much for old times' sake.

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