Deluded by Love

~ When she met you she was afraid to love you, when she loved you she was afraid to lose you, now that she has lost you she is afraid to love again. ~

She thought you were her knight in shining armour; you deserted her when she needed you the most.
She expected you to respect her decisions; all she got was derision. 
She considered you to be her chivalrous Prince Charming; you said some of the most disgusting things to make her believe otherwise.
She placed all her faith in you; your deceit disappointed her. 
She considered you to be the happiness of her life; you were actually the cause of her agony.
You assured her you’d trust her no matter what; you broke her trust by prying suspiciously.
You blamed her for things she never did. You reached conclusions without verifying facts.
She pleaded to be understood, you probably went deaf then. 
Her eyes spoke of her helplessness, you did not bother to see. 
In her most testing times she needed your strong arms to support her; what she got was an accusing impatient look.
She defied everybody to defend you and in turn was let down by you. 
She'd hoped you'd stand by; you chose to walk away. 
She was sure that you were her soul mate; she now scoffs at her imprudence.
The man who once made her feel so secure is now her pet peeve.
What she believed to be an ecstatic chapter in her life turned into a nightmare.
You promised you will never let her smile fade away; you became the reason for her tears.

A dramatic climax was impending. 
Who you took to be a dumb doll, was a woman with a sane head and a sharp tongue. 
Slaying her emotions, she did what was right in the honour of her dignity. 
Without displaying a trace of the emotional turmoil within her, she decided to say goodbye.
What seemed like love to her is now just another word.

Heartbreak is painful. The passage of time simply makes it more bearable. 
Time is, however, a great teacher. 
It taught her that it is all right to weep over mistakes, provided you learn from them and move on never to repeat them. 
You were the mistake here. And so was love. 
She learned that falling in love is beautiful, falling out of it is lacerating. 
But, the heartbreak was a blessing from God. It was his way of telling her that you were not the one for her.
Moving on was not easy, but her grit was indomitable. It would never allow her to accede to a relationship that lacked the sound foundation of mutual respect and trust. 
You are nothing but a speck in the past to her now. 

She, however, misses the man she loved. 
She misses who she thought he was. 
She misses sound of the voice that made her day. 
She misses the laugh that made her smile, the eyes that said they cared. 
She cherishes the times that were. The love that was. 
For it is not difficult to forget the person you once loved, it is hard to forget the love you once felt for that person.
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Patience, Thou Art an Elusive Nymph!

Dear Miss Patience,

Hope this finds you in the best of your patience. I write to you with a humble request. In my most testing times, I plead you not to leave me in the lurch. No doubt you have been my constant companion in times of peace, but it is during the turbulent times that I need you the most. Quite ironically, that is when you begin to slip away from me just as dry sand would if I'd try to grasp it.

Mr. Fury is always on the lookout for an opportunity to take your place when you desert me. He acts like a spark of fire in a box of gun powder. No doubt he is a satiating vent, but he cannot be a perpetual means of tackling retards and their boloney. I firmly believe that Mr. Fury must always be the last resort in such situations, and my belief cannot be affirmed without your support. Being the peace loving, non violent person that I am, I would like to give a fair chance to all those imbeciles trying so hard to test my equation with you to rectify their folly (at least once!). I know you have a strong repulsion to hogwash. I share your sentiments and sometimes hope I too could evaporate into thin air, like you do, when confronted with exasperating situations created by infinitely exasperating individuals. Unfortunately, Nature did not grant me that virtue and it solely remains your forte.

I must inform you that the world is full of cretins who knowingly/ unknowingly do things that might perturb even an insane being like me. I do not demand too much from you. But just be in the offing and give me the strength to sympathise with these little jokes of the Almighty instead of plotting to strangle them. I do not want you stick with me all the time. I understand that you too have your limitations after all, and it is only natural for you to lose your 'patience' in the process. So don't worry, I will grant you your vacation to Hawaii when I decide to take charge of things for a while. However, it could be worth a try, to collaborate and generate a bearable level of tolerance in me to maintain world peace. 

P.S. - Honestly, I don't care a hoot for world peace. Stay with me because beating the living daylights out of people is illegal!
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Yours truly,
Moi.